the things i'll miss

your infectious laugh and smile.
all those crazy stories you told.
your sassy sassy attitude. :)
every time you gave the "what the hell are you thinking?" look.
all your computer and movie knowledge.
those awesome jokes... ;)
the way you could make anyone laugh.
your ability to turn any frown upside down.
the way my big brother looked up to you and the relationship you two shared.
when you looked at my grandma and i could just tell, even after all those years, that you still so loved and adored her.
and the way she always loved you back.

i pray that someday i'll see you again in heaven. I know you were ready to go, but that doesn't mean we were ready to have you leave. you had a big heart and a smile that could make any day better.

if there's one thing i can say i learned from you more than anyone else, it is how to keep your chin up in the hardest of times. you never gave up and you just keep fighting till the end...never letting the toughness of life bring you down.

i love you.
and i miss you.

i still can't believe you've gone, but in my heart you'll never leave.

i'll see you soon, Gramps.

-b.marie

a few late night thoughts:

nothing exciting. :)

first: i'm really thankful for my friends and the awesome community the Lord has blessed me to be a part of. new friendships are difficult and challenging and vulnerable but so very worth it.

second: i have an awesome new job. like....seriously, how did i get this? i keep asking myself that. It is such a huge answer to my prayers. I'm learning so much and getting to see a whole new side of how Lawyers work. :) i'm blessed beyond what i could have imagined just three months ago. AND getting up early everyday really isn't so bad. kind of refreshing once you get use to it.

third: birthdays are awesome!! however, i think they are a little overrated. i mean, yes. they are fun...but kind of selfish? right? i dunno.

fourth: sometimes a funny movie can really make everything better. watch Just Go With It....you'll agree. :)

fifth: well i don't really know what to put here. other than just to say that lately, i've been really enjoying the weekends. for example: on Sunday afternoon, i met up with an awesome, long time, dear friend (Marci Martinez) to do something some might find...strange? yeah, strange.
somehow, i don't even know how it happened...we had this idea...last summer...that we should go to a park and eat some chocolate cake. (and if you know me at all, you know that i LOVE chocolate cake...haha) so we went to the store, got a chocolate bunt cake and ate (pretty much) the whole thing while sitting at a park having some great conversation.
this past Sunday.....we did it again. :)

the cake:: (before we touched it)

 cake:: mid-consumption

the cake:: all gone!! :)

life is pretty great right now.
God is so good and I'm so blessed.
:)

-b.marie

p.s. we didn't actually eat all the cake....we actually barely even ate half of it.....sure fooled you.

booboobeeboo

this morning was my first official "stuck in traffic" moment.

it was awful!! 

but whatevs. :) 

birthday countdown: 12 days. whoo!

-b.marie